Not my will, but yours be done

   A hundred's time I'm listening to Matisyahu's "Jerusalem" in my car and it still touches my feelings. Matisyahu and all other orthodox Jews with him are dreaming about their nation of Israel as of a country where all the Jews would be able to live safely. They pray every Sabbath so that G-d would restore the Temple and send the promised Messiah. The "Jerusalem" song represents this long-lasting aspiration.

   When I was listening to the lyrics of this song, I realized that every pious Jew is always connected to his people wherever he goes. He has his motherland - Israel - even if he never was there. His purpose is to bless and support the Promised Land until the Anointed One will come and then all the problems will vanish. This is the power of the united nation.

   Meanwhile, when I look at myself, I cannot find the same patriotism, passion, purpose. Simply put, I have nothing to live for. The last 1/3 of my live I lived in the US and first 2/3 of it I have spent in vanity. As a born-again Christian I understand that nothing on earth plays any major role anymore. For a true Christian, the will of God is the only way out of purposeless life. Since the time when God has opened my eyes, he doesn't allow me to fully enjoy amenities and beauties of this world. The only time when I receive pleasure is when I know that I pleased my God. It's not easy and, hence, doesn't happen that often.
   Therefore, my motherland is my God, my Messiah lives in my heart, and my only purpose is to do his will. To understand his will is a difficult thing to do. One has to be open-hearted and very sincere. Many times I thought that God has spoke to me when it was just my imagination. But, once a Christian will understand God's calling in his life and will follow it, there will be no happier person in the universe! This is what I'm dreaming about and I hope that I will find my niche in this world.